I Made It!

Today was my last mental health clinical rotation and I made it through! When I realized I would be having a clinical shift 5 days after surgery, I was pretty worried about it. But, with the help of my classmates and husband, I made it through!  Adam drove me to clinicals this morning and a classmate drove me home. My classmates kept offering to help me with things today, but I actually felt pretty good during my shift. Now that I’m home, my body is exhausted so I’m going to rest – but I’m so happy to be officially done with all my schoolwork for this quarter. Now I can just focus on my upcoming mastectomy and prepare for recovery. Here’s a pic of my clinical group from today getting creative with our photography.

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Feeling Better

Today has been a good day in my recovery from the nipple delay. I haven’t had nausea today (woohoo) and I even got out of the house with my mom. The pain is wayyy better so I’m off painkillers and onto Tylenol. Tomorrow is my post-op appointment when I will find out about the nipple pathology to make sure I can keep them. Knock on wood, everything looks really healthy in terms of blood flow! Here’s a pic from my first night of recovery with my doggy, Bailey.

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One Day Til Nipple Delay

Fair warning: I’m about to say nipples a lot. If you want to play a drinking game – drink every time I say nipple. Tomorrow is my first surgery, the nipple delay. It’s an outpatient surgery that should take about 1.5 hours. During the operation, my breast surgeon lifts the skin from the tissue and takes samples from the nipple to make sure there are no pre-cancerous or cancerous cells, so I can keep my nipples (I should have the pathology report on Thursday). Also, this surgery stresses out my skin and causes the blood flow to start changing a week before the mastectomy, making the mastectomy a tiny bit less traumatic and increasing the likelihood my nipples will survive the mastectomy. My mastectomy is the following Tuesday the 26th and I’ll be in the hospital for a few nights after that one with a 4-5 week recovery period.

To prepare for tomorrow’s surgery, I did a hyperbaric oxygen chamber treatment per my doctor’s recommendation. The reason to do the hyperbaric treatment is for faster healing after surgery. I was a bit scared, but it was actually really relaxing. You get into this big giant tube and it feels like you’re in an airplane with your ears popping a lot at first. Luckily, they gave me water and gummy candies to help with that. It isn’t like an MRI, so you are able to move around all you want. They had a bunch of movies to choose from and I picked Legally Blonde 2. It was a pretty good choice because it was exactly the length of my session, 1.5 hours! I felt really relaxed after my session and am going to go back again the day before the mastectomy.

I am a bit nervous for tomorrow, but really trust my team and am ready to begin this process. The anesthesiologist called me tonight to go over my allergies, which I thought was awesome. The only bummer is my surgery is not until 3:45 so I may be pretty hungry/thirsty all day tomorrow since I can’t eat/drink before surgery. Anyhoo please send good vibes/energy/prayers for me tomorrow afternoon. Adam will be guest blogging during my recovery so I’m sure he’ll post an update on how everything went.

In the meantime, please enjoy this picture of me in the hyperbaric oxygen chamber.

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Pre-Op

I had my pre-op with my breast surgeon last week, and my pre-op with my reconstructive surgeon today. I did everything from my tips for appointments list, and I feel pretty prepared for the upcoming surgeries. Actually, I feel prepared for what to expect, but unprepared in terms of getting everything done before then. My nipple delay is this coming Monday, and I have lots of schoolwork to do before then. I want to get everything done before then if possible because writing papers while on painkillers could either have a really good or really bad outcome. 🙂

After these appointments, I know some supplies I need to pick up in advance, along with some meds. I’m really thankful that I have such great doctors. They both spend a lot of time with me and answer all of my questions. They are honest and kind and experts in their fields, and I’m just so happy with my team. Now, back to that schoolwork…

Goodbye Boobies

My nipple delay is in a week, and mastectomy in two weeks. I’m getting everything ready and finishing up all my schoolwork. Something else I’m doing that is really important is celebrating my breasts. I need to say goodbye to them and thank them and then welcome my foobs (fake boobs) with open arms. I’m doing some things to celebrate them.

1. My mother-in-law threw a “Bye Bye Boobies” party for me yesterday. It was so awesome to be in a room full of strong, supportive women who are completely encouraging me on this journey. The setup was beautiful with pink and teal (for breast and ovarian cancer) decorations, food, balloons, and even tutus. There were boob related foods like boob cupcakes and pink ribbon cookies. We played pin the boobies on Rachel (luckily on a life-size photo of me and not my actual boobs). I gave a little talk about hereditary breast and ovarian cancer and the BRCA gene. It literally brought me to tears to feel all of the support in the room and it was a great way to put me in a positive mindset before my surgery.

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2. Last month, I applied for a Keep a Breast Treasure Chest kit and I was given one! It is a program to memorialize your breasts if you are going through breast cancer or undergoing a prophylactic mastectomy. My husband helped me make the cast tonight and it turned out awesome! It is so nice to have a piece of art to memorialize my breasts. I hope to have an artist friend paint it for me!

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3. I’m talking to my body. It may sound strange, but I’m (silently) talking to my body each night preparing it for what is going to happen and how I am doing this to be healthier. I’m also thanking my breasts and preparing my body for the new ones.

Check Check 1,2,3

I’ve come up with a list of items that I think will come in handy after my mastectomy. I came up with the list from talking with other BRCA carriers who had prophylactic mastectomies, attending the FORCE conference, and also read this great book. My list is below in case it’s helpful to anyone else getting ready for this surgery.

  • Pillows, pillows, and more pillows
  • Pre-packed hospital bag 
  • Mindfulness CDs
  • Slippers and robe
  • Eye mask and earplugs
  • Comfy blanket
  • Mastectomy seatbelt cover
  • Silk button up pajamas
  • Button up t-shirts
  • Elastic band pants
  • Drain holders for shower
  • Toiletries to help when you can’t shower (dry shampoo, cleansing wipes)
  • Throat lozenges (for after being intubated)
  • Alcohol wipes and gloves for drain cleaning
  • logs for drainage and medication

If you have suggestions for other items I should pick up, please let me know!!

Are You Scared?

“Are you scared?” That’s a question I’ve been asked a lot lately. I’m happy that my friends/family are comfortable enough to ask me that question. Weirdly, the closer I get to surgery, the less scared I am. Maybe it is because I’m so busy with finishing up schoolwork and making sure everything is organized before my surgery date. The mastectomy is scary, it is a 7 hour surgery with a lot of moving parts. But, in the end, my breast cancer risk is lowered from 87% to 1%. And that is what makes me have a very positive outlook about my mastectomy.